my zune is broken! damn microsoft!!!

music

i found out today that my friends down here have very bad taste in music. i am making mix cd's for a party that we are having and all the people they are naming off im like are u serious? so if course i will throw in a couple of good songs in with there crap music.lol

it almost a new yr!

drinking

i figured something out. drinking had become a tthing that i can just pass time with. i basically drink everynight. last night was fun. went over to mj;s with michelle and brian. we played circle of death.(through that game i made three drinks of apple vodka and sprit..so good!)i stopeed drinking after my third one. i slept like a baby last night. nothing could of woken me up!

new years eve is gonna be awesome...lets get drunk!..again..

Happy 18th birthday Ethan Gotcher..(its about damn time)

i absolutely hate it when people leave me a mess at work and i have to fix it all. its so messed up. i mean come on. figure out how to fix it and fix it. it can't be that hard. this morning i opened and the person that closed left me a full page note on everything she had fucked up that night. i wanted to fuckin hit something. mostly the girl that did it. what sad is that she starts trainin ethan to close next week. god. if he does what she is doing ill kill them both.

This weekend blows.

P.S.
i wish i was in nevada with the two greatest people in the world right now aka jason and torri.

one is the loneliest number

i feel as though i am alone. no one here rly knows me. not even my family.

i am alone.

just another day.

my life over the last week..
-spent all my money shopping for other people
-worked my ass off
-and chilled with friends

it been pretty boring lately. sorry i haven't written. its not like i didn't have the time i just didn't feel like going on the computer.

today is christmas and yet it feels like just another day. its 81 degrees outside right now. i want it to be colder. specially for this time of yr. this is just rediculous. i hate florida.

i got some pretty neat stuf from my brother today. since we already had our big christmas the kids just exchanged gifts today.. it was pretty fun.

jason is in overton right now and i rly rly wish i was there with him. i feel so home sick.

I talk to my grandma yvonne today. for the first time in about 2yrs. she is my biological dads mother. and she is the person that i mostly look like. i think if i would of never met her i would always wonder if i was adopted or not. talking to her made me happy. and also made me wonder how my biological sperm donor was doing aka derrick. i didn't have the guts to ask her about him.

my love...The LIP!

Torri i love you so much...
you may think you don't need to live..but you do. i need you in my life. i don't wanna have to live without you..
i love you so much. i will always be there for you..even when you don't need me..
call me whenever you wanna talk..just call me!
<3<3

still stretching my ears.

my new gauges..
size 0!
finally..

funny faces

we where bored befor the movie started..
...what can i say..we are weird..

p.s. kristen(the one in the middle) didn't know we were making funny faces..

christmas early..

Today was christmas for my miles/copening family. and what a great christmas it was. i got a wii fit and a chi hair straightner. the two things a wanted..yay for my parents listening. i went out and bought shaun white snowboarding today at best buy. its awesome. anyone wanna play??

pit..

Lawn...

Atreyu..

At NBT8 i had to sit in lawn..it sucked. but o well. it was still fun. and after a while i snuck into the seats. atreyu kicked ass and so did red jumsuit. i am so glad i didn't miss them. i had to leave after flobots well because i was having a asthma attack which is never fun. i am fine now.

lead singer of red jumsuit..isn't he gorgeous!

NBT 8

Last night i was forced to go to applebee's with all my co-workers. it was kinda fun except for the part where mj called me a bitch and i just about decked her in the face. but other than that the night was ok.

today i am going to NBT 8 with ben,kristen,matt,rachel,trevor and his girl sam.. weird huh.. o well.

you know what i have decided..that i look rly cute in my sailor jerry bandanna..
:) :) :)

Last night jason and i where wearing the same shirt..(unplanned) i mean we live what 3 thousand miles away from another..what can i say..we have great taste!

My brother is dateing my friend and i hate it

Last night..was HORRIBLE..so we where at dinner and will came to pick me up and my stupid ass mother wouldn't let me leave. i mean come on what kind of shit is that. will drove over 20 minutes to pick me up. i felt like such a bitch. and the entire time was threating him. for some reason ben doesn't like him. i know its because of kristen. but he is my friend. not hers. i am rly sick of her and ben together or apart.

Tonight i am supposed to go to applebee's with my co-workers. but last night i found out they invited ben and kristen. so i think i am goin to chill with will instead. lol i wanna go but i don't think i can handle them tonight.

I feel like i need to be in nevada. Torri is going through some things. and i want to be there to help her through them. i don't rly know what i could do to help her. but i think just the fact that i would be there would help her. i miss her. and all the stupid/crazy things we used to do.

i started talking to kenna again yesterday! in my phone i give her a new codename everyday just so ben will never get her new number. he hates the fact that i am talkin to her but i don't care. she is one person i can tell anything and everything to. and i miss her like crazy.

polkadots are my weakness

isn't this just the pretties thing you have ever seen.i think so. i want to learn to play just so i can own one. sad i know. but its just so god damn pretty. one day it shall be mine..

went christmas shopping today and i am totally done with family. now all i have left are friends. i already know what to get jason. it is perfect for him.(he's gonna love it) I have a good idea on what to get the Lip but im not real sure yet.

i got my brother das boot shot glasses for his birthday, o ya today my oldest brother turns 26. i can't wait to turn 21. i hate being the youngest!!

we are celebrating christmas on the 13th because my dad leaves the 16th so odviously he wont be here for christmas and we want to celebrate a little something with him. we probably wont do anything on the real christmas.

im going to a party tonight with a straight edge kid (xxx) so i rly don't know how much fun it will be. the only reason im going is because he's hot. i know nothing will ever happen with him because i know he can do a lot better than me. i just need to get out..

Last night was actually a lot of fun..i didn't rly know anyone there but its always good to meet new people right.lol

People are SO freakin stupid i swear. this guy came into work today and he made me feel like the biggest peice of shit, i wanted to just go h0me and i had seriously just walked in so the rest of the day was shit just because of that one guy

so tonight I DRINK!! that is how i get my anger or frustration out...alcohol is my friend!

there is one thing that most people do when they are my age..and that is have sex...well not me.. i have made a vow to save myself until i am married.. people don't understand that i don't care if they are having sex. its none of my buisness so i don't ask people, people just like telling me this shit. KEEP IT TO YOURSELF! you don't need to brag. and i rly don't wanna hear sex stories. because you know what i don't have any to tell..

i love hot tea...it is probably the greatest thing ever made.

I am going to 97x next big thing on sunday. the line up is
-Avenged sevenfold
-Shinedown
-Atreyu
-Flogging Molly
-Flobots
-Jack's Mannequin
-Shiny toy guns
-The red jumpsuit apparatus
-saving abel
-Ludo
-3OH!E
-Framing Hanley
and then there are a couple local bands playing. i am excited to go. specially to see atreyu and flogging molly. they are going to be awesome. i got pretty crappy ass seats but o well. at least i will be there.

I started looking up plane tickets for april. i dont know what i should do. fly into vegas and leave from vegas and road trip to reno OR fly into reno and leave from reno and roadtrip to vegas. i guess either way i will be get to see the pcp.

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I am so freaking sick of opening. everything went wrong today that could of went wrong. it sucks i don't know how cindy handles it!

today i bought NBT(next big thing) tickets. it was buy one get one. but i can't find anyone to go with me. i tried to get jason to fly down for a day but he said he couldn't. in nevada i would never have this problem.

bitch bitch bitch

worked sucked so bad today. it felt like it was going on forever! now i am home which believe me doesn't make my life any better. i wanted to go shopping this morning with my mom and sister to get some christmas present but no my bitch of a boss made me work. because someone else that she actually like wanted it off too.(so she got it off and she made me open)

I have to open the rest of the weekend and then again on monday.(i should of thought this promotion through befor i took it)

it 5:50am and i am getting rdy to go back to work. there is seriously something wrong with this. i worked 10 hours yesterday. now im going back for me..ugh! kill me. people are so stupid this time of year i swear.

all the kids in my family picked names out of a hat so we only have to buy one christmas present this year. and plus our parents. (i got matt) i wanted to get ben but i didn't. i think i am still going to get him something. i know he wants something sailor jerry(he wants to be cool like me)so i will probably get him something from there. (i'm such a nice sister)

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!
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so its the day befor thanksgiving and i got called into work 4 hours early.


today is going to suck!

21st birthdays

So out of my friends i am going to be the last one to turn 21.
torri turns 21 on monday! and then jason will turn 21 in march. i know thats only two people but rly they are the only two friends that actually matter to me. they have been there for me for sometime now and they are probably the only two people in the world that know everything about me.. I can't believe we are finally going to be 21. time has gone by so fast.
hopefully i will be able to take a trip around my 21st. hopefully its not to much after my birthday. I wish i could be there for both of there's. Love you guys.

give me

This is my new phone. i love it.

OMG I WANT THIS JACKET

what was i thinking!

Last night i got to spend time with mariana and her new husband..o ya sailor jerry was there too. (of course). i didn't drink that much. but just enough for me to tolerate the people i was with. my friend kristen took me driving the other day. and i did ok. i only scared her ounce. so i thought it was an improvement from the last time i went driving. she said she will take me again so im excited for that..i wanna learn how to drive. its something that i need in my life.some indpendence. so hopefully i can finally get my lisence.

you know what i realized. i haven't had a boyfriend in over a year. which is rediculous. i need to get out there. and meet new people. i think i am sociable. but maybe im not. i hate florida. all the girls down here are freakin gorgeous and well im not. i wish i could just switch bodies with someone so i wont have to go through this shit anymore.UGH!

Today i have been a total bum. i haven't even stepped out of my house yet today.lol.

I have to work 3pm. which trust me it sucks. but i need to the money so i am totally ok with it.

My new phone kicks ass!
(o ya i got a new phone yesterday)

i miss singing in a chior. i need to find some place to get voice lessons or something. just so i can start singing again. what i rly need to do is get my GED but hey thats another story.

wow so i bought a new phone today. it called the verison blitz. its pretty freakin awesome. i probably should of bought it. but it was needed. now i have a huge credit card bill..lol.. but o well it will take me like two weeks to pay that off.

i miss torri and jason.
i can't wait till april to see them both.

i went to a straight edge concert last night. it was weird. but the bands where actually good.lol

I have to go get my piercing taken out. and it sucks. i love it. but its starting to hurt everyday now. o well.

im going to a casey jones concert with will im kinda excited. it should be good.

kristen, mj, and i decided we are going to take a trip to georgia in december. its gonna be awesome. i cant wait. 

I got a raise at work!! o and i now have vacation pay. so when i go to nevada i will get paid for it. how awesome is that!! 

i need to get a new phone. that is so not in my budget right now though damn it!

wow. so tomorrow is mj's big day. if i was her i would be freaking out right about now. but thats just me.

ill have pictures up tomorrow.

Today is the day of all days..I have no work! and for me thats awesome.

things to do today:
-get dressed and do hair
-decide what shoes to wear today.
-clean room
-play wii
-go shopping with kristen(find mj a wedding gift)
-chill with friends
-hopefully talk to jason/torri
-sleep...

Tomorrow is mariana's aka MJ's wedding. i can't call her mj anymore. but i can call her MM. after tomorrow her name will be Mariana Mori. weird. i can't believe she is getting married. but i do understand why she is doing it. and im glad she is staying in the country. it would be weird without her here.

You never know how lucky you are until you see someone who isn't as lucky.

turn these nightmares into dreams

Andy aka dad got a job in louisiana as a captain on a boat. he will be gone for 28 days and then he will be home for 28 days. its pretty awesome for me. because you know he is a big pain in my ass. but my mom has been such a bitch since he has left. i just wish he would come home already. i would rather out up with his shit everyday then have to put up with her bitchiness.

I bought Wii Music the other day. its freakin sweet. i can't stop playing it. anytime i have some free time i play. im actually getting pretty good too. and i didn't think that would ever happen.

I have to work a long time today. (but think of all the money)
i need to start saving for nevada.(that means no more shopping!!)

blah.

Halloween had to be one of the best halloweens i have had in a long time. i don't rly remember most of it. but that was the good part.

so i finally made a rly good friend down here in florida. suprisingly its a girl..to bad she had to start dateing my brother..why does this shit always happen to me??
i don't feel like i can talk to anybody about this. and i don't wanna tell my brother that it bothers me because i don't wanna mess up his feelings for my friend. uh!

Mj is getting married this tuesday!!(crazy)

Blitzkid is going to be in tampa this saturday!!(can't go)

i feel as if i am drifting from all my friends and family.

halloween

Well HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!
....i have no idea what i am going to do on this great day....
hopefully kristen and i can think of something awesome to do tonight.

I miss Nevada..
and i want to be there with my friends and family

The last couple of days have been pretty good. i finally got my wii back! and i have been playing it like crazy. (im a nerd) o i got super mario brothers and sonic the hedghog for it. the old school ones. with the crazy old graphics. its awesome!

i am going to escape the fate concert on saturday with kristen and some of her friends. yay!

friday is HALLOWEEN! i have no idea what i am going to do. my boss let me have the day off so hopefully something good! :)

HSM3 SENIOR YEAR

I got my costume for saturday. it is going to be so awesome. its kinda sluty. its probably as sluty as i will ever go! ill make sure to take pictures.

So last night i went to applebee's with mj,josh and kristen. and it was pretty fun. kristen and i got some bomb ass food as always. and as always we gave our left overs to mj. she doesn't like spending money anymore. which i can understand if i had to leave the country i would save as much as i could too.

Im gonna miss her :(

HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3 CAME OUT TODAY!!!

crash landing

Matt has now arrived! uh kill me. He is probably the one family member that is the most like me. and thats probably why i dislike him so much. o well. my work and friends will hopefully distract me from him and his annoying qualities.

I have to work 3-11 today!! i don't know what im excited about this but i am. how sad is that, that i am actually excited to go to work. damn.

Im so happy lately

ok so ijust got home from the concert with will and it was awesome. i didn't go into the pit because well because i didn't wanna die basically. people are crazy in there.lol. will did though. he was a mad man in there. he is going to be so sore tomorrow!

im going to rocky horror live in saturday. but there is a twist. its there zombie night. so you haavee to dress rocky horror and be a zombie. how awesome is that. my two favorite things in one!
saturday will be a great day.
:)

work sucked so bad! im so tired. i think im gonna go take a nap..Oops never mind i have to go to another kick ass concert! o ya..i can sleep when im dead.

ROCK ON!

suicide silence and emmure tonight.

Last night was freakin awesome. Rise against kicked ass and the other bands weren't half bad either. kristen and i got the rail the entire concert. it was awesome. course we got there 3hours early just to get it. o ya we met tim (lead singer of rise against).

Tonight i am goin to see suicide silence and emmure with will. and then on november 1st i might be going to see chiodos,escape the fate and silverstein. it all depends if kristen can get it off work.

Im running on about four hours of sleep and i gotta go work 8. damn this is gonna be fun.

my boss is a bitch!

I finally got my hair cut! i rly like it.
ill post a pic later.

The new ETF cd is freakin awesome. i can't stop listening to it!

Rise against concert is tonight..Then suicide silence tomorrow!!

The one man in my life i can count on

talking to Jason...

-he is the one person i can count on. even when i moved to florida the first time we kept in touch. (now thats what i call a true friend). the year that i spent in florida was hell for me. starting a new school and everything. it sucked. and talking to him kept me sane.
-when i moved back to nevada i was glad to know i would already have a friend there. even thouhg i grew up there you never rly know who your true friends are. through our entire senior year we where best friends..it was awesome.
-even though high school is over. he is still the one i go to for everything.(even though we live 3 thousands miles away from another)

PCP

WAY TO GO RAYS!

GO RAYS!
*the tampa bay rays made it to the world series. people at work are going to be so happy today. i can't believe they actually won. its rly exciting to live in a town that has a famous baseball and football team.

Rise Against show is tomorrow. then in wednesday i am going to a gridcore concert. its gonna be a good week!

brother=dumbass

So the last week my family has been getting ready for my brother matt to get back in town. he will be here on tuesday. i don't want him here. i know that is bad to say about my brother. but he is stupid and a jackass. basically he is like my biological sperm donor (which he is back in prison by the way).Matt and his girlfriend rachel are moving. we built them a room. yes built!! O ya and the best part is that she might be prego. god damn he is a dumb ass. he already has one kid that he cant take care of. so like i said. i don't want him here!!

update

In the last week i have actually done a lot of stuff.

on saturday i went to HHN with kristen and her brother(other people where there i just didn't rly know them) i got home on sunday morning at 5 and had to be at work at 6 so i pulled an all nighter. and trust me i will never do that again unless there is drinking involved! When i got home from work on sunday i slept the entire day and night away.(it was awesome)

The rest of the week has been pretty normal. just workin and chillen. i have three days off this week. which is cool in one way and sucks in another.

next Tuesday is the Rise Against concert and then on wednesday i am going to e grid core concert with william.(i am happy he one of my friends. even with all the drama that goes with it)

Today i have to of course work 3-11. I have tomorrow off though. and i get to spend it with william so that should be fun.

Aaahhh

my wrist hurts so bad. i can hardly use it.

today i re-did my room. it looks awesome.

i am going to Halloween horror nights at universal studios tonight with my friend Kristen! it is going to be great fun. i can't wait to get the shit scared out of me!!

last night there was a party at Cindy's and it was awesome. Brian was the first to pass out so we all got Sharpe's to draw on his face with!! o ya it was awesome. Cindy got me one of the huge ass bottles of sailor Jerry. you know the ones with the handles!! i didn't drink all of it. but most! Tyler helped me drink it. what i nice guy.lol. 

I wish i was in overton right now so i could be with the PCP.

sailor jerry shoes!!

MY SHOES CAME IN TODAY!!!!

*they are so awesome!! i love em.

Doctors are way to exspensive!

Just got home from the doc.
-He gave me more medicine..YAY!!
-He talked to me about going to see an allergist.(because he wants me to go through more pain)
-I never knew going to the doctore without insurance cost so much freakin money!!
-I absolutely hate the fact that they do not except debit cards.

Today has just been one of those days where i wanna crawl into a black hole and not come out.

Aw the good old days..

FIRE!!!

Tim giving the fire a drink..

asthma

So i would say about 7yrs ago i had a rly rly bad asthma attack and when i say bad i mean i almost died. I was in ICU for 6 days and then still in the hospital another 3 days after i got out of the ICU. the funny thing is nothing trigured this attack it just kinda happened. and i will never know why i had this attack.
now 7yrs later i have very good control over my asthma. well so i think i do. i ran out of inhailors a couple days ago and we didn't have an nebulizer treatments left. My mom has been freakin out all day. She never wants me to go through that again. which i can understand. she wont let me go out tonight because i dont have an inhailor. (i love her)


I will never forget that exsperience. it will haunt me for the rest of my life.
p.s. I go to the doctor tomorrow for my inhailor and we found some nebulizer medicine.

Memories

This concert was awesome. and was probably the best i will ever go to. Im glad i got to share it with one of the greatest friends i have.

I LOVE YA LIP.
CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU AGIAN.
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my night was pretty uneventful.
-I went to applebee's with Mj,Michelle, Bryan and my brother Ben.
it was pretty interesting. now my brother knows why i drink so much.

The new RISE AGAINST cd is out! and i love it. I can't wait to go see them live on the 21st. i am ready to freakin mosh my ass off!!

my shoes still aren't here :(

tuesday from hell

*work 3-11 again today.
-i think my boss is trying to make me quit.

We shall be together again..I promise

I don't think april is going to come fast enough for me. I miss the good ol times. when i wouldn't get ditched by stupid dumb bitches. I know i can always rely on Jason and Torri. I don't know what my life would be like wihtout them and i really never wanna find out.
LOVE YOU GUYS!!
PCP.






* work 3-11 today
I DONT WANNA GO!!

(8hours later)
work sucked!! i hate that place with a passion.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHELLE!!

my friends down here in florida make me feel so old. My friend michelle is just turning 19. so im like what a year and three months older than her. holy crap!! i need to start living. i really don't think i have lived my life to the fullest so far and thats probably not good.
Today is the day when i start living!!

Oops!

I bought new shoes the other day!! i can't wait to get them in the mail. lately i have been totally obsessed with sailor jerry. i mean everything alcohol included.

I finally got my rise agaisnt concert ticket in the mail. I can't wait to go to that concert. kristen and i are going to have so much. (we are still trying to get two more people to go...josh and ethan)

Today at work i was an hour late. my alarm never went off. i felt so bad because i was supposed to be training so i can actually get paid a bookkeepers salary. i still learned a lot though! cindy is a great teacher and i love her for being so patient with me.