Me+Colin

yesterday was great.

Colin got his phone all weekend! him and i got to talk about a lot of things. I also talked to his dad. which was a little strange but still okay. His dad was very nice. Colin got to talk to my mom. and im sure he just loved that.lol. my mom is such a worrier. She can't just understand that i love him and want to be with him. o well. she wants to get to know him too thats fine.

So i am going to be in the valley for around a week. maybe more if my boss will let me.

I am going to apply for a passport this week!

Colin and his dad looked at rings yesterday. O and when i asked colin why he wanted my ring size. all he said was for the future.lol He is cute.

Working 1-9 today..woohoo!

anger

I don't think i can live in this very much longer with matt here. he has been steeling again. and that just not okay with me. my stuff isn't safe in my own home. what the fuck!

whats been going on in my little life

In the past couple days i learned that colin is going to Germany after basic training now im not sure if those are his official orders yet or not but for right now that is where he is headed. Next weekend is Family Day and hopefully he will get his phone so i can talk to him about it. In his last letter he told me that he wants to write my parents a letter. i think its because i have been talking to his mom he wants to talk to mine and get to know my family a little better.He says that he is going to go to the valley for the 4th of july and he wants me to go with so i can get to know his family a little better. which is okay with me. I know it will go fine. The only thing i am rly worried about is how his parents are gonna like my tats. i can cover most of them but some they are gonna have to deal with. i would rather they get to know me for who i am then some stupid fake person. I have been getting a couple letters a week now from him. And getting a letter from him totally puts a smile on my face.

Yesterday Lucas Miles turned 1

My tia evie and grandma flo are here from nevada. they are staying for around a week. Which is awesome. i haven't seen them since January. course ben hasn't seen them in like 6yrs or something like that.

We are having a big party on saturday for andys birthday and also for lucas's. there are gonna be like 45ppl at the house.

Friday i am going to the rays game for Aarons birthday. and then probably to the bar afterwards. okay so i havent had a drink in a while. so i am probably gonna get drunk off of like 3beers.lol i am totally becoming a lightweight.lol

I am going to the gym everyday now!! and i am loving it. except for the fact that it makes my face breakout i feel like im in highschool again.lol

I wanna go home! o wait i am home..damn it!

So i have decided that i am probably one of the worst girlfriends in the world. im pissed that coin chose to go see his family instead of me after his graduation from basic. sad right! I hate the fact that i come second. but i know it will always be that way. Writing letters is getting so old. can he please have his phone back now..i would like to talk to have a actual conversation with him!

anyways..

i went to the rays game on friday. we lost but it was a lot of fun. afterwords i went bar hopping with ben,kim and chase. of course we ended up at fat daddys.the only place ben and chase like to drink at. This weekend i didn't do much. slept mostly. Ive been watching a lot of baseball lately. i like it a lot. I am going to another rays game in a couple weeks for Aarons birthday which should be fantastic!

I am gonna try and fly down for one week of colins leave. probably the first week of july. which would be on my birthday. Hopefully i can. because i don't rly wanna go to georgia. i know he wants me too. and i would be glad to if his parents werent gonna be there with us. with his parents there we will have no alone time at all! not that i don't mind sharing him i just know they would watch my every move. Amanda says she doesn't like colins mom. hopefully she isn't a bitch. i am nervous to meet her. but im sure everything will be fine ounce its over and done with.

First off i would like to say that i don't want colin to go to freakin Europe after basic training! omg. why cant he go to like kentucky or something.AAHH!

My life has been boring as hell. i've decided not to go to colins family day and its pretty much killing me. but i can't afford it. but his graduation is in June so i will get to go to that. thankfully! after graduation is he going to nevada of course because well i am just his girlfriend and he needs to spend time with his family before he goes to freaking Europe!

Am i just supposed to wait for him while he is in Europe? i don't even know how long he is gonna be over there.

hiya

So i haven't written in a while. might be because my computer is still in reno or because i am totally lazy. either way it didn't happen. so for a update on my life here it is.

I am working like crazy at sweetbay 32-40hrs a week. and yet i am still broke all the time. ounce i am done paying off some of my debt from my move to reno i am going to start paying back jason. i still don't feel right how he paid for me so i am going to pay him back it may take me years but its going to happen. When im not working i have been going to the gym because well its free(kinda) and it makes me feel better about myself. I usually go out maybe ounce or twice a week with my friend michelle. because she is amazing and really the only really friend i have here besides some guys from work. Aaron and i are becoming good friends. he usually hangs out with michelle and i on thursday but lately his job has stopped him from doing that. Im just glad he isn't being a douche anymore.lol

Since Colin has been at basic i have been getting a letter once or twice a week but this week i haven't gotten anything it is kinda making me worry just a lil. Im sure there is a good reason but when letters are my only communication with him worrying is all i can do until i get one. He invited me to go to family day which is next month the 22-23. I really wanna go but i don't think i will have the money to. but if i don't go to family day i will definitely go to his graduation which i planned to do since the beginning.

Sometimes i really miss reno. mostly the people in reno. mostly jason. i miss hanging out with him everyday and picking on him. and yes i do miss zoey. she is a crazy dog but i love her. she is nothing like the dogs i have in florida. these dogs are so spoiled. my mom gives them whatever they want.

I hate living with rachel. i want her to leave this house and never return. she is such a bitch and she treats my mom like shit. But lucas is getting so big and so freaking cute. he is starting to crawl and can kinda stand up by himself now. his birthday is next month. he is finally going to be one years old :)

Back in FLorida

So being back in Florida is totally strange. i am already back to work which to me is a good thing. but the people down here are different. and its not a good different. I don't really have any good friends down here anymore. i drifted apart from them. which at the time it happened i really didn't care because i didn't plan on coming back to Florida but i guess god had other plans for me.

I haven't really gone out since I've been here except with my brother Ben and my friend Michelle. other than that i have stayed home and just lounged about. I wanna go buy some roller skates this weekend so i can start skating again. i miss it so much. but i don't know if i will i have to work all weekend. but hopefully i get the time. O I'm also going to a tattoo convention this weekend with my brother and that should be really fun! I guess thats all i have to write about for now.