Michelle Francis

so i don't know how but i just realized how much of a friend Michelle has been to me. i know i can count on her for anything. i really don't know what i would do without her. with Colin gone she keeps me occupied with things to do and always listens to me when i need to vent and of course i am there for her when she needs me as well. she is my best friend and i don't think i have ever had a best friend thats a girl. Michelle you are truly one of a kind.love you girl

my weekend

Last night was my going away party and people started to come over at 6pm and then didn't leave till 3am! lets just say it was a long long day. i had a lot of fun tho and i am really glad i got to have it while my dad was still in town. I am really hoping that colin will hear back about my papers this coming week. i really wanna be there with him. i miss him so much.

lost this battle..time to fight another day

Sometimes i just wanna block out the world.

makes me wanna scream!

Sometimes i feel like its never gonna happen. like im never gonna get to be with him. I feel as if everything we have worked for to be together is never gonna be approved and i going to have to go on living my life married but without my husband. i miss him. i don't wanna be without him anymore. this sucks

weekend fun

So the weekend was fun. had a girls night with michelle and heather! it was a lot of fun those girls always know how to cheer me up. we had a surprise party for my dads friend he turned 50. lol some of these pics are from a couple weeks ago at a party i went to at my friend tana's house.

Heather <3



SHOTS!




Flip cup!

operation get sam to Germany

So today my paperwork went to a higher command to be overlooked. and i am so excited! i hope it doesn't take them long to approve me. so Colin can get out of the barracks and be with me.
I had a nice phone call with Colin this morning! just hearing his voice puts me in a better mood. I miss him so much. I can't wait till i am able to be with him.

Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are [Official Video]

This song is amazing!

Germany info

well Colin got back from his wilderness training last night! so today he went and turned in all my paperwork..they told him to check on it tomorrow but he says he is gonna check on it everyday until its approved..i hope it doesn't take to long.

2days off

So i have today and tomorrow and i NEED to go threw all of mine and Colin's boxes and reduce them into a smaller amount. they kind of take over my parents dinning room and they want it back because we are having a surprise birthday party this weekend for my dad friend. I will probably start it today when i get home from the gym. Michelle and i are going to zumba! our favorite teacher is doing a extra long class tonight we are super excited!!
I feel somewhat lost..

living one day at a time

At worked i asked for every weekend of September off so i can spend it with my family and well i have had to work every freakin weekend! my job is so retarded.

Colin only has one more day in the wilderness for training and i am so excited. i get to talk to him somewhat but not really. he said they might extend it till Tuesday i really hope they don't. we need to turn in those papers so i can get over there!!

poem i found :

I wear no uniforms, no blues or army greens But I am in the Army in the ranks rarely seen I have no rank upon my shoulders - salutes I do not give But the military world is the place where I live I'm not in the chain of command, orders I do not get But my husband is the one who does, this I can not forget I'm not the one who fires the weapon, who puts my life on the line But my job is just as tough. I'm the one that's left behind My husband is a patriot, a brave and prideful man And the call to serve his country not all can understand Behind the lines I see the things needed to keep this country free My husband makes the sacrifice, but so do our kids and me I love the man I married, Soldiering is his life But I stand among the silent ranks known as the Army Wife

forgive..not so much forget...

so its called forgive and forget right..well i am working on the forgive part right now. everyday is getting a little better. but for now my trust in him is pretty much gone. but one day im sure it will be back. he is gonna have to earn it tho.

so hurt :(

what was he thinking!!!

Be Brave!!

since going to macdill and learning that i am done with all my paperwork the waiting game sucks! all i wanna do is go to germany and it seems like the army is taking forever!! when in all actuality it has only been 4days lol

People at work are starting rumors already about the day i am leaving. my boss has already asked me if i have put in my notice because she had heard that i did. i hate people that talk about stuff that has nothing to do with them. we aren't in high school anymore people get over it i know my life is better than yours lol

Starting to plan my going away dinner! it is gonna be around the end of this month i want me dad to be there because he is the best cook i have ever known and only he can cook my going away dinner. its gonna be the last time i will be able to eat his food for a long time.

Michelle and i aren't really hanging out as much as we used to. all she does it party and i am so over that. I know she knows i have changed a lot and she is coming to terms with it.

Heather and i are hanging out more! and i love it. she always makes me laugh. her and i have a lot in common and the fact that both of our men live away from us helps. she doesn't mind that i am on the phone all the time talking to colin because she is on the phone all the time talking to her man. it works out pretty well actually.

colin gets his promotion tomorrow to PFC!!!
congrats babe :) love you <3

Going to MacDill AFB today so i can have my mental health test!! and then i am done with all my paperwork! i am so excited :) hopefully i can go over to Germany really soon.