Me+Colin

yesterday was great.

Colin got his phone all weekend! him and i got to talk about a lot of things. I also talked to his dad. which was a little strange but still okay. His dad was very nice. Colin got to talk to my mom. and im sure he just loved that.lol. my mom is such a worrier. She can't just understand that i love him and want to be with him. o well. she wants to get to know him too thats fine.

So i am going to be in the valley for around a week. maybe more if my boss will let me.

I am going to apply for a passport this week!

Colin and his dad looked at rings yesterday. O and when i asked colin why he wanted my ring size. all he said was for the future.lol He is cute.

Working 1-9 today..woohoo!

anger

I don't think i can live in this very much longer with matt here. he has been steeling again. and that just not okay with me. my stuff isn't safe in my own home. what the fuck!

whats been going on in my little life

In the past couple days i learned that colin is going to Germany after basic training now im not sure if those are his official orders yet or not but for right now that is where he is headed. Next weekend is Family Day and hopefully he will get his phone so i can talk to him about it. In his last letter he told me that he wants to write my parents a letter. i think its because i have been talking to his mom he wants to talk to mine and get to know my family a little better.He says that he is going to go to the valley for the 4th of july and he wants me to go with so i can get to know his family a little better. which is okay with me. I know it will go fine. The only thing i am rly worried about is how his parents are gonna like my tats. i can cover most of them but some they are gonna have to deal with. i would rather they get to know me for who i am then some stupid fake person. I have been getting a couple letters a week now from him. And getting a letter from him totally puts a smile on my face.

Yesterday Lucas Miles turned 1

My tia evie and grandma flo are here from nevada. they are staying for around a week. Which is awesome. i haven't seen them since January. course ben hasn't seen them in like 6yrs or something like that.

We are having a big party on saturday for andys birthday and also for lucas's. there are gonna be like 45ppl at the house.

Friday i am going to the rays game for Aarons birthday. and then probably to the bar afterwards. okay so i havent had a drink in a while. so i am probably gonna get drunk off of like 3beers.lol i am totally becoming a lightweight.lol

I am going to the gym everyday now!! and i am loving it. except for the fact that it makes my face breakout i feel like im in highschool again.lol

I wanna go home! o wait i am home..damn it!

So i have decided that i am probably one of the worst girlfriends in the world. im pissed that coin chose to go see his family instead of me after his graduation from basic. sad right! I hate the fact that i come second. but i know it will always be that way. Writing letters is getting so old. can he please have his phone back now..i would like to talk to have a actual conversation with him!

anyways..

i went to the rays game on friday. we lost but it was a lot of fun. afterwords i went bar hopping with ben,kim and chase. of course we ended up at fat daddys.the only place ben and chase like to drink at. This weekend i didn't do much. slept mostly. Ive been watching a lot of baseball lately. i like it a lot. I am going to another rays game in a couple weeks for Aarons birthday which should be fantastic!

I am gonna try and fly down for one week of colins leave. probably the first week of july. which would be on my birthday. Hopefully i can. because i don't rly wanna go to georgia. i know he wants me too. and i would be glad to if his parents werent gonna be there with us. with his parents there we will have no alone time at all! not that i don't mind sharing him i just know they would watch my every move. Amanda says she doesn't like colins mom. hopefully she isn't a bitch. i am nervous to meet her. but im sure everything will be fine ounce its over and done with.