Who I am

Last night was a lot of fun! it was the first time since i have been here that i went out without jason. it was weird at first but after a while i got used to it. Kayla Jack Jimmy and I drank all of the Sailor Jerry. Both bottles! it was a very long night. Amanda had to come and pick us up when she got off work. Thanks Amanda!!

So I checked my schedule to see if it had changed at all and IT DID! i now have hours next week. which totally excites me. they are still only working me 4hrs at a time but i will take what i can get.

nerves

My schedule has yet to change..im starting to get rly worried..

So of course today none of my freakin managers were there for me to talk to about my schedule. its like the universe is against me..

Going to see the family tonight (bar family) im sure they will cheer me up!

So i just went on the macys schedule. and it had it up till like january something. well guess what im on it but there isn't any fuckin hours next to my name. i don't know what this means. but i don't like it. i rly dont wanna go job hunting again. it took me forever to find this fuckin job. i knew it was seasonal. but they asked me if i wanted to stay on after the holidays and of course i said yes! i mean why wouldn't i. i don't know what i am gonna do if i have to go job hunting again. this fuckin SUCKS!!

I really hope the schedule changes. i am a good/hard worker! there is no way im sleeping tonight. i cant get this out of my head. im like shaking its making me so nervous.SHIT FUCK COCK BALLS!

Today i didn't really do anything. i cleaned house and that was enough for me. O and guess what its really had to wash dishes with a sink that has no running water! lol

Last night I went to stumpy's to see the family! and it was awesome. i got a sweatshirt out of it from Chris. Nicole finally got a cell phone so i can text her all the time now! Chris got a new phone too but he said he doesn't really text that much. i will probably still text him anyways..knowing me.

Today i got really hyper. i drank like 3cups of coffee around noon and well lets just say it wasn't good. by like one thirty i was dancing around the house singing. it was so much fun. i am glad no one was home though. it would of been a little weird if Megan and Drew were home when this happened. i don't care if Jason saw me doing it. he is like my brother.

Ramblings.

omg so this is what i have realized this week. i realized that i should of moved out a long time ago. since i have been in reno none of my pants fit me anymore my belts are to big. yay for losing weight! lets keep this up!

So yesterday my manager called out and my crew chief was a hour late. dont they know that jobs are hard to come by these days freakin idiots!

Lately i havent been able to get warm. i can put on many layers and still im freezing. my florida blood does not like me one bit.

Amandas parents will be up here this weekend. which is gonna be awesome. i totally got out of snowboarding. i actually do wanna go but i don't wanna ruin Jason's outing so i am now scheduled to work that day. but i have that night off so i can go to the ugly sweater party.

Yesterday Torri helped me figure out the perfect gift for Jason! hopefully my mom didn't steel my idea for him. if she did i am so freakin screwed!! i bet you anything she did though. i just know it.

GOD DAMN IT!!!!!!!

I can watch a musical a day and never get sick of them

So when i get new music i like to try and listen to it all at least ounce and then i will decide if i like it or not. and it usually works out really well for me. all the cd's i got yesterday i pretty much love and ounce one cd is over i wanna listen to it again but then i remember i have like 4 others i still need to here. damn people for putting out such great music all at ounce.

Today Megan and I finished the second layer to our igloo. i was pretty proud of us. this layer went by a lot faster than the first layer did. which was awesome!!

So i made Megan and Drew watch High School Musical 3 the other night. and i am pretty sure they hated it. but i loved it. i hadn't seen it in a really long time and it was good to watch it. and of course i know like all the words and songs. mom and i used to watch it at least ounce a week when i lived in Florida. she said she is having Lucas watch it! that boy is gonna be a musical lover when he grows up just like his aunt!

Reading

I can't seem to stop reading this book!!

defying gravity

you know when you find that one song that you can just listen to over and over again well right now mine is cut by "plumb" i am totally obsessed. its not rock or punk rock its slow and its something i can sing to i think that makes me like it so much more. I don't even remember how i found this song it guess it kinda just found its way to me. and well i love it!

So i asked my boss for more hours and what does he do he gives me less this week than i had last week! i need to find another job and fast. i will still keep the one i have a Macys i just don't make enough money there. i need to find i job that i can work in the morning because i usually work at night for Macys which i personally hate but i will keep my mouth shut because if i say anything i will probably end up with no hours what so ever.

It finally snowed the other day! and i love it. i am not really prepared for the you know the cold weather but who cares its fuckin snow!! Megan and I are making a igloo and so far its pretty kick ass. it will probably take us a while to finish it but when its does its shall be awesome. On Monday my crush (Nicole) wants me to go sledding with her and our bar family and that should awesome too.