First off i would like to say that i don't want colin to go to freakin Europe after basic training! omg. why cant he go to like kentucky or something.AAHH!

My life has been boring as hell. i've decided not to go to colins family day and its pretty much killing me. but i can't afford it. but his graduation is in June so i will get to go to that. thankfully! after graduation is he going to nevada of course because well i am just his girlfriend and he needs to spend time with his family before he goes to freaking Europe!

Am i just supposed to wait for him while he is in Europe? i don't even know how long he is gonna be over there.

hiya

So i haven't written in a while. might be because my computer is still in reno or because i am totally lazy. either way it didn't happen. so for a update on my life here it is.

I am working like crazy at sweetbay 32-40hrs a week. and yet i am still broke all the time. ounce i am done paying off some of my debt from my move to reno i am going to start paying back jason. i still don't feel right how he paid for me so i am going to pay him back it may take me years but its going to happen. When im not working i have been going to the gym because well its free(kinda) and it makes me feel better about myself. I usually go out maybe ounce or twice a week with my friend michelle. because she is amazing and really the only really friend i have here besides some guys from work. Aaron and i are becoming good friends. he usually hangs out with michelle and i on thursday but lately his job has stopped him from doing that. Im just glad he isn't being a douche anymore.lol

Since Colin has been at basic i have been getting a letter once or twice a week but this week i haven't gotten anything it is kinda making me worry just a lil. Im sure there is a good reason but when letters are my only communication with him worrying is all i can do until i get one. He invited me to go to family day which is next month the 22-23. I really wanna go but i don't think i will have the money to. but if i don't go to family day i will definitely go to his graduation which i planned to do since the beginning.

Sometimes i really miss reno. mostly the people in reno. mostly jason. i miss hanging out with him everyday and picking on him. and yes i do miss zoey. she is a crazy dog but i love her. she is nothing like the dogs i have in florida. these dogs are so spoiled. my mom gives them whatever they want.

I hate living with rachel. i want her to leave this house and never return. she is such a bitch and she treats my mom like shit. But lucas is getting so big and so freaking cute. he is starting to crawl and can kinda stand up by himself now. his birthday is next month. he is finally going to be one years old :)

Back in FLorida

So being back in Florida is totally strange. i am already back to work which to me is a good thing. but the people down here are different. and its not a good different. I don't really have any good friends down here anymore. i drifted apart from them. which at the time it happened i really didn't care because i didn't plan on coming back to Florida but i guess god had other plans for me.

I haven't really gone out since I've been here except with my brother Ben and my friend Michelle. other than that i have stayed home and just lounged about. I wanna go buy some roller skates this weekend so i can start skating again. i miss it so much. but i don't know if i will i have to work all weekend. but hopefully i get the time. O I'm also going to a tattoo convention this weekend with my brother and that should be really fun! I guess thats all i have to write about for now.

HAPPY MARCH!

A week from tomorrow i will be back in florida. How fuckin crazy is that. omg. I can't seem to get myself motivated to really pack up my life again but i know i have to. Last weekend was fun. Jason drew and i pretty much just stayed in. we went and saw the crazies and it was actually a pretty good movie and i do well with scary movies. O wow i just realized that sarah medina could be here tomorrow if she comes up. wow. forgot about that with everything thats going on. So cindy already put me on the schedule for next week! so of course all my old office people saw it and started texting me. Im not even back yet and i've already gotten invited to go to applebee's three times. omg i forgot how much these people go there. o well!

Last night i texted Aaron till like 1am. and thats 4am his time. it was a good conversation tho.weird but good.Last night i also talked to Kristen VanAusdal from high school. it was crazy of how much her and i had in common now. she is a totally different person than she was in high school. O i also talked to tonya chidester and she is just a big downer. i ended that conversation in like 5minutes. i think she hates me because i live with jason and she has had a crush on him since like 9th grade.lol o well.

Today i am going threw my room and trying to get things ready for my big move. I really do hope i am making the right decision. i know i need to move back so that i can make money i just hate the fact that i couldn't find a job here in reno. but o well. I talked to Cindy again today and it was a good conversation. they kept all my old name tags. I think they knew i was gonna come back.

Nichole invited me to go rollerskating tonight and i really wanna go. It probably wont be good for my ankle but fuck it. im going anyways. if it starts to hurt worse i'll stop.

I have to admit i am excited to see my sister and brothers again. o and Lucas. But i sure am gonna miss Jason :(

Wow.

With everything that has happened in the last couple days i am so freaking stressed out! Today i came to the decision that i am going to move back to Florida. I don't really want to but i know i have to. I can't keep living here in reno without a job its not fare to me or Jason. In Florida i already have A job at Sweetbay being a bookkeeper. I make okay money. but you can be sure i am gonna save all the money i can so i can come down and visit. I never thought that in one day my entire life can change so drastically. I'm glad that i already know people there and i don't have to meet all new people again. Everyone from Florida is already texting me and inviting me to parties even tho i'm still in Nevada. Well Nevada i am only here for one more month. Lets make the best of it! ( i really don't wanna pack again)

Aaron is already excited about me moving back. O gosh i can't even imagine whats gonna happen when i see him again.

So this week/weekend has been pretty eventful. i have yet to get a call back from the cal-Neva but Dana said they still haven't hired anyone for that job so i am still in the running for it. i talk to reggies mom about the job she wants me to do and it seems easy enough i am going to go to her house sometime this week and she is gonna she me how its done and if i like it then i will start doing it that day. ( reggies mom is really nice!)

Friday night we went to the chocolate bar and it was a lot of fun and after that we went to stumpy's of course and saw the rest of our family. we got Amanda to drink for the first time in 43days. it was amazing to have her back to her normal drunken self. Saturday the roomies and i went and saw the movie Valentines day. It was really cute i liked it course i am a sucker for the romantics. after that we went to a party at Amanda's old bosses house which was a lot of fun we learned a new drinking game called baseball. i didn't play but i watched and it looked like fun. So Friday night we got home at 5am and Saturday night we got home at 3am. its been a long but great weekend.

Today is Valentines day and i have nothing planned. I think the best part of the day will be torturing Jason. But stumpy's is having some sort of thing tonight so we might do there. you never know what can happen. we shall see.